I am so not kidding. Kiki and I have been traveling this road since 1st grade, and for the most part it’s been a good experience. 3rd grade was hard; there was more than one day that books sailed thru the air (that was Kiki – I didn’t throw books!!) I did think of throwing her out the window a time or twenty… then I found ‘bribery’ and school days took a big turn for the better! Yep – I remembered her PreK and Kindergarten teachers had “prize boxes” for good behavior, and I thought “Hey! Why can’t I make that work for me?!” hehehe
Well, now she’s in 8th grade. Every day is a fight, and I am running out of steam. She is totally non-self-starting, even though all the other moms and teachers tell me it’s time to make her do it mostly on her own… yeah. Right. She’d be getting straight F’s in that case. I think I’ve written here that we don’t do a “normal” homeschool… we do a co-op where there are teachers who provide the curriculum and lesson plans, who teach it on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and we do school at home M-W-F. That’s part of the problem, really. When we started this group, it was more loosely organized, and we had most of the flexibility of regular homeschooling, plus the benefits of our kids spending some time in a school with other teachers and other kids. Over the years, however, the school has morphed many times (we are on our 5th principal in the 8 years time we’ve been there) and now it’s really become “private-school-that-we-have-to-do-3-days-a-week-at-home.” There is no real flexibility in what we as parents want to do or not do with the curriculum, we have to have pre-planned abscences and are only allowed a certain amount, on and on… you know, regular school stuff, but not really regular homeschool stuff.
Kiki is also quite unhappy in school this year. Sure, most of it is bad attitude because her best friends didn’t come back to the school this year and she doesn’t want to be there without them – even tho there are other kids she can hang with, and it’s only 2 days a week – but on the other hand, she has one girl in particular who picks on her almost every day for how she’s dressed or how her hair is done or whatever pops into her head, I guess. That isn’t cool.
The outcome is that each and every day we do school here at home, it’s a big fight. She hates it, she doesn’t get it, she doesn’t want to go to school there… And on classroom days, she cries and doesn’t want to go…. uhg. I am so, so done with it all!
The problem is, I don’t really know where to go from here. Public school? Not in this lifetime. Private school? No way I can afford it. Regular homeschooling? Yeah, we tried that in Virginia. We basically didn’t do school for a year, so that won’t work.
What I really need is a vacation. All alone. Somewhere warm and ocean-y. With alchoholic beverages. For a long, long time.