The gray, the loneliness, and a bad case of PMS really got to me…. but I think I’m doing better now. It’s still gray, I’m still lonely, but besides that…!! I got a bit of a dent done here, and today was a pretty decent day, so I’m better.
Here is what you all don’t understand, though!!
When I say my house is bad, I’m not talking dusty. I’m not talking today’s dishes didn’t get washed, or I haven’t vacuumed in a week. Or two. I know, some would consider their house awful if that was the case – but, I am talking much, much worse! I’m talking clutter. I’m talking LOTS of clutter. Everywhere. Like, never eating at the kitchen table because of stuff piled on it. So much laundry my daughter wore bright green stripey knee socks with her fancy dress to church today. (Okay, she might have done that anyway, she’s got that kind of fashion sense…but – still.) I’m talking more clothes on the floor of my closet than on hangers. I’m talking we can’t do school in the schoolroom because the desk is buried in paperwork and you’d trip over stuff trying to get to the desk, anyway…..
Seriously, I don’t care if my house is a little dusty or what-have-you. I am a firm believer in spending time with my child is more important. But it’s gotten way out of control around here; that is the problem. Because it is so bad that we can’t have people over, and that messes with friendships. And with my self-esteem and my sanity. But I’m working on it. And I’m glad you all would probably like me anyway.