It’s time to face it. I’m depressed. Seriously, Prozac-needing depressed. Not as depressed as ‘standing-in-front-of-the-mirror-counting-the-pills-in-the-medicine-cabinet-"will it kill me"-depressed’….just crying-all-the-time depressed. So as a brilliant move, I went to buy a new pair of jeans today. Because as anyone with a brain knows, trying on clothes is a sure-fire cheering up for a fat chick. I’m really pissed off at WalM*rt. Not for the ordinary sucking the life out of the mom-and-pop store irritations; this is for the fact they quit making my jeans. See, I found this one particular pair of fat-lady ‘their brand’ jeans, that if I bought the same style and same size, they fit. Every time. So I didn’t have to try anything on…. avoiding the crying and all, so it seemed a good thing. Well, I’ve been needing a pair for….awhile. The old ones were in imminent danger of ripping in the upper thigh area (all that rubbing together, you know) and I had one fairly new pair that I broke the zipper on last week, idiot moi…. but I’ve looked at every WalM in the valley and no one seems to be carrying them anymore! Yesterday, the last pair finally lost the battle of the threads, so it was time, no matter how much I wished to avoid it. So I tried a couple of pairs of pants on, and the only reason I didn’t just sit in the dressing room and sob was because Kiki was with me, and, well, I’m trying not to let her see her mama have a full-on meltdown! So I’m gonna have to go to "The Fat Lady Store" (aka Lane Bry*nt) and pay too much for a pair of jeans… and, I’m not taking Kiki. Just in case.
We finished watching "Fiddler on the Roof". I’d never seen the movie before, only the stage play – which was brilliant; as I remember it, anyhow. That is a really good movie. Kiki thinks otherwise – she prefers her movies wrapped up neatly in an "everyone lives happily ever after" bundle. I don’t blame her. I was young once. I think I cried through the last hour of the show. Alan thinks I’m a little emotional lately. Thank you, Captain Obvious!
I took a bunch of pics of the pumpkin patch excursion – I’ll post them later. We had a good time. It was so warm and sunny, I was sweating in a sleevelss top and came home with a sunburn. Didn’t I just say we had ice on everything last week? We have the weirdest weather.