Alan says I don’t look old for someone three years away from 50. Thank you???? I try not to make a big deal over my birthday. Kiki doesn’t understand this at all. I mean, her birthday is next week, and she’s been making plans for…. well, as soon as Christmas was over, I think. Somehow, I always feel like I’m just setting myself up for disappointment, which I think stems from my childhood of never wanting anything but a horse. Ever. Every birthday, every Christmas. Just a horse. Which never came. So now I have this "whatever" sort of attitude. Because I still don’t ever get what I want. Which is a horse. Lol.
Yesterday Kiki and I went to the fair for my birthday (because we are the only ones around here that are into the fair). We had a great day – 10 hours worth! Geez. And an unbelieveable amount of cash – the fair is ridiculously expensive! We didn’t even ride any rides because 1) I am sure they are unsafe and 2) the Ferris wheel alone would have cost us $10.00 to go on! I can get nervous and freaked out for free, thanks. So, that was my "birthday" so today was just another day at the salt mines, but still, it would have been nice if the day hadn’t sucked. It just did, for lots of little reasons. It was somewhat salvaged tonight, as Alan took us out to dinner at the Cheesecake Factory, and I still have half a slice of cheesecake in the fridge for tomorrow. Yeah, there I go, back to soothing my pains with food. Lol.
The best thing about today was the weather. It almost felt like fall! Which I loved, but made me sad at the same time, because summer is nearly over, and my days of lounging on the back porch with a book are nearly gone. I am bummed beyond belief that I have to start work next week. I have a stinkin’ job already (mom, homeschool teacher, etc.) I don’t want another job!! Crap. Yeah, yeah, I know – better call the Wahhhmbulance.
Honestly, I’m glad the day is over. Now I can focus on getting the house clean for Kiki’s birthday party – the birthday that will actually be enjoyed!