You don’t need to ask where I’ve been…because I haven’t been anywhere; just here, at home. Moping, really. I am in a funk, you know? It’s Christmas, I suppose. Sometimes it just leaves you sort of blue. It’s not because I had some great expectations that didn’t come to fruition (I gave up hoping for the horse wrapped in the big red bow years ago!! lol) … I just think, because I’d been sick the weeks previous so I then had to rush like crazy at the last minute – well, I feel like I sort of missed the "Day". I didn’t get enough evenings lounging around the fire staring at the tree and the lights…. Then, right after, my M-I-L came to visit. Don’t get me wrong, she’s not a "bad" M-I-L…. it’s just work, I guess. It seems like we need to do stuff, entertain her…. and then this year, she wanted to buy me the new computer. I am not complaining about that, what I do want to complain about is the actual shopping for it. Holey cow! It would seem the salespeople at the electronics stores are in no big rush to actually sell you something. We walked into so many places, basically "money in hand" like, "I want to buy a computer, and I want it now – what do you suggest?" and we actually had one guy who said, well, some stuff might go on sale tomorrow, maybe you should come back. Seriously!? Then at a different store, we had the guy go thru his whole schpeil (sp?? anyhoo..) because when it comes to computers, I know next to nothing. So I told him what I do, what I want to do, and asked him what I needed. So he sets me up with this whole system, I say ‘go for it’ then he comes back and says "sorry, that model is sold out." And then as if there is nothing he can do for us….no, "well, how about this instead" or "this is a bit of an upgrade, how about this"….nope, it was just ‘that’s gone, so go home.’ Weird stuff, I tell you. I can also tell you that 2 1/2 days of dragging Kiki through one computer place after another was enough!! I was as sick of it as she was, and I was the one getting the gift!! sheesh.
Well, enough about that. You’d think I’d have been blogging away, but like I said, I’m just having a mood. And please don’t be worried that maybe I’m depressed (yeah, I am…duh) because I am already on antidepressants…maybe I need something new? But, the deal is, I’ll be okay….
Well, what else is going on? Today I am supposed to be packing up the Christmas stuff. I left it up a week longer because I wanted to enjoy it. But, I’m done now , and the poor tree is beyond dry! Kiki and Alan are out doing "store checks" so ha ha I am blogging instead of cleaning!! As if that would surprise any of you!! It has been really hard getting back into a routine of school and what-have-you. Then, Alan and I made this list of everything we need to change or fix or do differently with our lives this year…yikes. No wonder I’m in a funk. It’s totally overwhelming. I should just stay in bed! Which is, I suppose, part of the problem. Laziness. sigh. The less you do, the less you want to do. Vicious cycle and what-not. Then there is the whole "I’m annoyed with my sister again" deal… and maybe it’s just because she is skinny and dresses cute and I can’t?? As if that’s her fault?! I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself – as if that has ever helped anyone!
Well, well, well… an uplifting post from me; the one you’ve all been waiting for, I am sure! I suppose I ought to go do some of my ‘chores’ before the crew returns home… I will try not to be so whiney on my next visit – but, "it’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to" Lol.