I love fall. I love the crisp cool air and the beautiful changing colors of the foliage. I love the excitement that begins to build because Thanksgiving and Christmas are just around the bend.
I don’t love this stupid-wicked cold that I have. My throat hurts, my ears hurt, my head feels like it’s gonna blow up. On the plus side, I got Alan to take Kiki to AWANAS tonight all by himself… he thinks I am home sleeping, LOL!!! As if. Maybe I will go to bed when I am done here….
Here is something else I do not love. That marriage has to be so freakin’ hard. After 23 years, it’s still such a struggle. We just started this new class… at $150.00 for 8 weeks…. and after the first chapter of the book I am just pissed off. My head hurts too much to go into the ‘whys and wherefores’ right now, but maybe I’ll tell ya all later. At any rate, I just wonder if it’s gonna be worth the effort I have to put in. That sounds awful, I know. It’s just… well, later. I’ll talk about it later. Because if I try to explain it all now, I will still be here when the troops get home, and I’ll catch flak for not being in bed. Which is part of the problem…am I a child?? Is he my dad?? I think not. You could say it’s because he cares, but cut the crap then…. just be nice, not demanding…. okay, my head really hurts and getting all riled up isn’t going to help, now is it??
I am going to bed, my friends! If my head hasn’t exploded by tomorrow, perhaps I’ll try to make things a bit more clear….