So I’ve noticed fewer comments and fewer people visiting my space…. this shouldn’t bother me; after all, I began blogging as an alternative to writing in my journal, which I never seemed to get around to doing. I didn’t mean for it to become some big internet hit… and yet, when I was highlighted as a Featured Space it suddenly became important….I began keeping track of my ‘hits’ and got excited when I’d receive comments from new readers…or, new comments from returning readers… I don’t know what I expected to happen – that I’d suddenly become some Blog-elebrity or something… which is totally silly and self-absorbed, I realize. So I just need to get over myself! I write for, I don’t know, myself mostly. Occasionally I need to vent, and this seems to be a good place to do that. Of course I don’t know this for a fact, but I would imagine the Spaces that get most hits are kept by people who either have incredibly interesting lives (that would count me out, lol!) or those who make an effort to visit lots of other Spaces. I try to do that, but my computer is so slow these days it just is hard. And dang it, I just don’t see my life as getting exciting any time soon! The big upcoming events in my life are 1)my birthday in 4 days…yeehaw – getting older no longer excites me 2)Kiki’s birthday one week later – she’s excited but it’s just work for me! 3)more work for me as the Home Schooling Adventures begin again in just TWO WEEKS!! yikes.
It’s strange, isn’t it, how we all want some sort of recognition, some feeling that our lives count for something. I’m thinking it’s my "midlife crisis" of sorts, that I am feeling this huge discontent and wish my life was heading somewhere….somewhere interesting, I suppose. Part of me feels that I still have a lot of good years left, yet the other part of me feels like I’m too far past 20 or 30 to head down some exciting life path.
Well, enough musings for this morning! I just remembered that I am supposed to mow the lawn for Alan today…he asked nicely so even though I’m not sure why I suddenly have to do his ONE household task, I guess I will do it for today. And I suppose I should get going on it before the day is blazingly hot. Oh, yes….let the excitement begin!! Come back tomorrow for another blog of great interest….!!!!